sometimes i find human behavior is realli interesting. i would just sit thr for hours and observe people ard me and those walking past me.
instead of finding the ONE solution, many people tend to find THOUSANDS excuses so that they dont have to face the problem. sadly enuff, 我就是这种人。
u have to know the fact that if u cant even do it during practices, dont expect urself to do it during the real thing. if u happen to do it, u juz rode ur luck; luck is something u cant control.
i always think of u whenever i attend wedding dinners, esp when they show videos abt how they get together, wat they've been thru together etc. our love story could have been so perfect, but such perfection will oni occur in dramas/movies, life is never perfect. i'm grateful though. 想要的，不一定要得到。
thr is no such thing as "best". for every "best", thr is always a better. i started to understand that thr's no "doing ur best" as no matter how "best" u've done, u can always do better, in one way or another. u r actually juz doin it at ur satisfactory level.
-to be continued..-
manchesterunited 22:06
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Monday, 26 December 2011
happi boxing day! didnt receive any christmas present though =( been raining for days, if it's singapore, it would have been flooded long ago.
sometimes i ask myself: y do i have to push myself so hard? y cant i juz take it easy? 如果我是在sem1拿到现在的成绩，我会很开心，很满足。为什么现在会这么失望？是因为自己的expectations吗？是因为我不能输给你？or isit bcos i was once the top student? with my golden name carved on the board in the sch hall? or i dun wan to disappoint my parents? bt they nv expect anything from me. or i juz wan to be the best? or isit bcos of my peers ard me? with them doin so well? 觉得自己像个白痴。
thank god you are fine! realli feel so relieved when i heard tat! omg before i received ur call, i was like 神不守舍，六神无主，心悸心慌.... 你知道那天你打给我真的差点把我吓死吗？ 第一次我听电话到手抖得差点连电话都握不住， 听到我眼泪快飚出来， 走路回家时还一度头晕脚软，还好没晕了过去.. 现在没事就好，别再吓我了好不好？我真的受不起的=( 彷徨无助了几天，现在心情还算比较好！ ——————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————
